Monday, January 5, 2009

Back to the Grind

So after two weeks of being on break, I am headed back to work today. The district actually made it pretty easy for us, it is a work day, which means no students. Part of me will miss being able to stay up into the wee hours of the morning reading, sleeping in, staying in bed (reading), and spending all day with my kiddos. The other part of me is ready to get back into a routine.

When ever I am on break, it is just that, a break. It is a break from everything. I always feel like a terrible mom and wife while I am on break. I never seem to have dinner ready, or even an idea of what to make, when Brian gets home. The laundry seems to be put off till the final weekend, all the errands that need to be done rarely get thought of until the eve of my return to work.

As much as I think I would love to be a stay at home mom, I just don't think I would be very successful at it. I think that as a procrastinator, I need schedule, and tight time frames to accomplish tasks. Or maybe I would be able to establish a routine if I knew that it was my "job" and I didn't have a limited time to recoup and rejuvenate.

I guess I'll never know.....

Learned? Is the grass really greener on the other side? Can I have the best of both worlds? Teaching is the one profession where I feel I get to be with my kids just as much as a stay-at-home mom does.

1 comment:

Walker paradise said...

good luck back to it girl!! happy christmas merry new year the four wheeler looks fun